37 week pregnant! I can’t believe it! Our little girl is almost here. I’m giddy at the thought of seeing her for the first time!
As my pregnancy comes to an end, I can’t help but reflect on everything that’s happened. I would love to say that the past 37 weeks have flown by and it’s all been easy peasy, but then I’d be a big fat liar. Ha! The truth is, it hasn’t been easy. Except for those few blissful months during my 2nd trimester. At the time, I thought it was “just ok”. Now I realize just how good I had it in the 2nd trimester.
But all in all, this pregnancy has been really hard at times – in the last month especially. I have found that my pregnancy has gone beyond just a physical toll on my body and it’s starting to take an emotional toll. The other day while trying to relax in our pool, I broke down to Kevin about how I’ve been feeling. I just sat there, cried my eyes out, and poured my heart out to him while floating like a beached whale on a floaty. What a site that must have been. Ha! And don’t get me wrong, I am so so SO happy to be pregnant and feel so incredibly lucky to be ABLE to be pregnant and bring a little life into this world. I realize that there are many women out there that would give ANYTHING to be in my position. And my heart aches for those women. I will never know your pain or pretend that what I am going through is anything compared to what you’re going through. But I have to be honest with my feelings right now and lately, I just want my body back. I want to have a drink at the end of a stressful day. I want to be able to tie my own shoes. I want to sleep on my stomach. I want to go to yoga. I want to walk my dog around the block without being in terrible pain. I want to eat runny eggs for breakfast. I want to not be in pain. I want to feel like myself again.
Look, I realize many of these things seem so trivial. Even as I type them out all I can do is think to myself “You shouldn’t be complaining. You should thank your lucky stars to be in this position.” Well, I do thank my lucky stars and I am super grateful, but that doesn’t discredit the aches and pains I am feeling. I bring this all up because I hope that many of you out there can relate. Especially if you also have Uterine Irritability like I do. My doctor told me that I am definitely experiencing way more contractions and pain than the typically pregnancy. I honestly took comfort in her telling me that because sometimes I feel like I am just being a big baby. But no, I’m not a big baby. I’m HAVING a baby and the truth is, it can be hard.
Even after writing all of this, I’ve contemplated deleting everything I just wrote cause I’m worried that I’m being silly by even writing about this. But if I ignored all these feelings then I wouldn’t be honest with myself or be honest with all of you.
I have to talk about the positive aspects of pregnancy too and say that I know I am going to miss being pregnant when it’s over. I know I’ll forget about all the aches and pains and just remember the things I love about it. Like feeling my little one wiggling around inside my belly – it’s the most magical thing. I will never forget the moment I felt her kick for the first time. The past couple weeks, I can actually make out the shape of her foot when it’s pushes against the side of my belly. It’s so surreal. I’ve also really loved my big belly and watching it grow over the months. At times, I’ve never felt more sexy and womanly than I have while pregnant. Not so much these past few weeks, but for sure from week 20 to week 30.
I also realize that tough times are ahead. My doctor just said to me yesterday, “She could come any day and even though you are in a lot of pain, it’s easier to have her in there than to have her out here.” That really made me think and realize that I should try to cherish these last few weeks/days with Kevin. It will never be just the two of us again (3 of us – can’t forget Owen!). I’m also trying to be thankful for the sleep I do get, even though I wake up about 5 times a night at this point to go pee. So I’m already starting to miss a full night of sleep.
All that said, the good and the bad, I am overjoyed at the thought of meeting our little girl so soon! I know the moment I hold her in my arms none of the pains of pregnancy will matter. It will all be more than worth it. Now, I just need to start mentally preparing for labor. But that’s a whole other story and whole other blog post! Next time 😉
Can any of you relate? I really beat myself up when I start getting down about this. How did you get through the final weeks of pregnancy? Any tips for me?
Also this dress is so cute so I had to leave fashion credits below 🙂
Does this maxi dress look familiar? That’s probably because I own it in 3 different colors/prints! You can see me wearing a geometric print at around 21 weeks pregnant HERE and see me wearing the navy blue version at 20 weeks HERE. This is not a maternity dress so anyone can wear it! And I honestly think it would be so flattering on all body types. I just adore this dress. Really. It’s starting to get a little tight at 37 weeks pregnant, but that’s to be expected. I just love that I am going to be able to wear it all summer long – with a baby on my arm and flats on my feet! I’m wearing a size medium btw.