I love this side-by-side photo of me last June versus me and Molly this June! Well I guess technically Molly is in the first picture as well. Kevin and I went back to the very same spot to take the 2nd picture one year later as a reminder of how much life has changed – for the better of course!
Well first and most importantly obvi, is how much better my hair color is! Ha! (This is obviously a joke). But really I love my new cool-blonde color. And I just love how this dress (non-maternity BTW) transitioned with me from 9 months pregnant to today! When I wrote about this maxi dress back in June 2016, I told you guys that I loved it because I could wear it after I had my baby (she was “baby” before she was Molly) and hopefully I’m proving that point today! I’m wearing a medium FYI and I’m normally a medium at Nordstrom. This dress is definitely for medium to small chested girls. I think it would be tight on a busty gal.
Anyway, on to the important stuff! Molly! My sweet little baby girl, oh how you have changed my life. Babies change things – everything. And not always for the better to be honest. I was just talking to my girlfriends the other day about Motherhood at this a charity event we attended together (wrote about it HERE and HERE) and I said to them “I’m different and honestly, I’m not as fun!” and it’s TRUE!!!! I used to be the friend that said “Hey, let’s drop everything and take a road trip up the coast. Or maybe head to Vegas for the weekend?” but now I’m just NOT that girl anymore. For good reason. I have responsibilities now. I also used to always be down for dinner with friends or heading to the beach for the day on the weekend. But I just can’t do those things as much anymore. And quite truthfully, it’s been quite a long time since I’ve done any of those things. I have to plan my meetings and coffee with friends around Molly’s naps and often times, my friend’s children’s nap schedules don’t match up with Molly’s. Which makes it almost impossible to set a time to meet up.
Before having Molly, are used always tell myself that I would never let it change me. So why have things changed so much? Well, mostly because I am so busy. I have so many projects going on right now (which I can’t wait to share with you guys!), but my main job, being a mom, has me busier than I could have ever imagined! Also, I’m so tired all the time and stressed about whether Molly napped enough or if I will get home in time to nurse her before Kevin has to dip into our (always depleting) stash of frozen milk. And yes, I am still breastfeeding exclusively (with solid of course – just no formula yet) and it’s HARD! I feel like once I stop breastfeeding life might get a little easier, but right now, it’s a constant struggle to keep my milk supply up and be here every time Molly needs to eat. So my point is, I’m not the girl I used to be. I hope I get back to being more like that girl as Molly grows and hopefully I can learn to chill out. But I have a feeling I am just going to get ore worried about her and still be a mere reflection of who I used to be.
All that said, even though I’m not really “fun” Ali anymore, I am so much better in so many ways. I am a nurturer. I am more in tune with others feelings; therefore, more supportive. I love more than I ever imagined I could. So am I worse off today? Absolutely not! I’m better in so many ways – just different. I’m a mommy. And I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Even if I turn out to be the most boring person in the world! Ha!
I dunno. I’ll be interested to see how you guys react to this blog post. And please know that I’m not saying moms aren’t fun. I’m just saying I’M not that fun. Ha! Let’s discuss in the comments below. I would love to know what some of you other moms experienced when you first became a mother. And I would love to know how some of you are able to keep the parts of you that made you YOU before having children. They say having a baby changes EVERYTHING. Whoever “they” are, they’re SO right!