Today is my last day of work before I go on maternity leave. It also just happens to be the day I am exactly 37 weeks pregnant. I always thought that I would work right up until I gave birth. But as many of you know, this baby is measuring a few weeks ahead. At this point he’s measuring 41 weeks! And I definitely feel like I’ve been overdoing it the last few weeks. I decided that today would be the last day I would go to work at Home & Family because I really want to focus the few weeks or even days that I have left with my family of three. And Owen too of course, but you know what I mean.
And after some of these long mornings with Molly, followed by an even longer day of work, I’m just in a lot of pain. The other day I was lying on the couch thinking about how much I wished this baby would come so I wasn’t pregnant anymore. And while I was thinking that, it dawned on me that this is my last pregnancy. I know I’m uncomfortable (sometimes it feels like my belly is going to hit the floor is hanging so low), I know the pain is getting worse day by day, I know I can’t sleep at night (although I won’t be sleeping any better once the baby arrives) and I know pregnancy is HARD. Really hard at times.
But at the same time, this is the last time I’m going to experience pregnancy. Well, I guess you should never say never. But as of now, we don’t plan to have any more children. And I know that having the ability to carry a child is a blessing. I think about the alternative of not being able to get pregnant and think about how heartbreaking that would be and how so many women across the world feel that heartbreak because they can’t get pregnant. And look, I wholeheartedly believe that pregnant women have every right in the world to complain about how hard pregnancy is. Because it is hard! And I honestly can’t promise you that after reading today’s blog post I won’t still complain waiting for this baby to come. Because I know I will.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m making a vow to myself today to do everything I can to try and soak up and enjoy these last moments of pregnancy. So this morning I’m putting on a cute dress, even cuter sunnies and flat shoes (so I can be more comfortable) and choosing I’m to wear a smile on my face all day long!
And for those wondering my sunglasses are by DIFF Eyewear. You guys know I own quite a few pairs of their sunglasses. I just love that every time a pair of their sunglasses are purchased they donate a pair of reading glasses to someone in need. So every time I buy a pair, I feel good about it! The ones I’m wearing in today’s post I thought looked super chic in gold/brown lenses, but they also come with purple lenses that are really fun! And I just checked and my discount code ALIF still works for 25% off! Check out the other DIFF sunglasses I own here (the cutest mommy and me matching! Molly and I and I are actually wearing these sunnies on Home & Family today for our mommy and me fashion segment) and here. And also, my maternity dress is the most comfy EVER. I legit slept in it one night after wearing it because I was so tired and it was so soft. Ha! My exact color is sold out but it come sin two other colors here.
Anyway, I want to end this blog post by inviting all of you to share your favorite parts of pregnancy. Was it taking your first positive pregnancy test, was it feeling your baby kick for the very first time, or maybe it was your water breaking and the moment you realized you were moments away from meeting a person who is going to absolutely change your life! I just listed these 3 because they have been my favorites for my two pregnancies.
And I want to a knowledge anyone reading this who is struggling with fertility issues. Know that I am thinking of you and can only imagine your pain. Hugs!