I know that I keep saying this, but now that I’m 38-weeks pregnant, this baby is really coming any day now! In fact, I’m a little shocked that he hasn’t already made his arrival. I had Molly at the end of my 38th week and my doctor says that moms tend to have their second babies earlier. So if I had to guess, this little guy is coming this week!
At this point in my pregnancy, I definitely feel like I’m ready for him to get here. But knowing that we’re about to go from one kiddo two kiddos feels a bit overwhelming. OK, I’m lying, it feels a lot overwhelming! I just feel like I’m barely keeping it together with one child. How am I supposed to do this with two?
I will say this though, I’ve found a lot of comfort in connecting with other moms. I feel like when we are able to talk about our shared experiences, or even our completely different experiences, it brings us all comfort in a way. To know that we’re not alone and that others understand what we’re going through. That’s one of the reasons I feel super honored to be one of the people that Plum Organics has asked to be a part of their Keeping it Together campaign.
We’ve been a fan of Plum Organics for a really long time. In fact, I wholeheartedly credit Plum Organics as one of the main reasons that Molly is such a good eater. You guys are always commenting about Molly’s meals on my Instagram stories when I’m feeding her and many of you are shocked at how healthy she eats. She’s obsessed with quinoa, broccoli, peas and pretty much anything that’s really healthy or green. It’s funny because sometimes I just wish she would eat something like a grilled cheese when we are out and about and it’s the only thing available. But literally she will turn down a grilled cheese and ask for bites of my salad instead. It’s pretty incredible to be honest with you. (By the way, check out this class I did with Plum Organics and Brit + Co about raising adventurous eaters.)
The reason I credit Plum Organics is because when she first started eating purées/solids after I breastfed her, we pretty much only gave her the all veggie Plum Organics packs for the first month. She absolutely loves the Carrot, Beans, Spinach & Tomato. Did we try to make some homemade baby food in the beginning? Of course we did. I thought I was going to be this incredible rockstar supermom that could cook all of my baby’s food fresh every day. That lasted a whole 5 to 7 days before I realized that just wasn’t possible long-term. Not with my schedule. Now that I’m about to have two kiddos, that’s definitely not gonna be possible when this little guy starts eating solids. But truthfully, I really think that’s why Molly is such a good eater. To this day she still loves her veggie Plum Organics packs . She’s also obsessed with their puffs which I always keep in my diaper bag for snack-time on the go.
Anyway, I bring all that up because when they reached out to me to be part of this campaign I was honestly truly honored! We are such huge fans of the brand and Molly eats their products on a daily basis, so it was a no-brainer for me to work with them. Plus I just love what they’re doing by encouraging moms and dads to come together to share stories of new parenthood. Because let’s face it, parenting is hard! Really hard at times! And to be completely honest with all of you, on a daily basis I feel like I failed as a mom in some way. I know it doesn’t always appear that way on Instagram. But we all know Instagram isn’t the whole picture of what’s going on in peoples’ lives. I actually have a super embarrassing story to share about how I really didn’t keep it together one day. I honestly went back-and-forth on whether or not I even wanted to tell you guys this because I feel like it was such a mom fail. Here’s what happened…
It was not even two weeks ago when I was 36-weeks pregnant and having an extremely stressful, busy week. I don’t remember all the specifics but I just know it was a really busy morning and I was already exhausted by the time I got to my 11:30 AM doctor’s appointment. And as any parent out there knows, most moms and dads that are at home with their kids get more done by 9 AM every morning than most people get done in an entire day. Molly gets me up at 5:30 most mornings, so by 11:30 AM we’ve already had half a day in the books. So, by the time I got to my prenatal appointment I was completely wiped. I got Molly out of her car seat and was so exhausted that I decided to leave the diaper bag in the car because it was pretty heavy and I didn’t feel like I could carry any more than just her at that moment. So we went up to my doctor’s office and while we were in the waiting room, a gentleman wanted to get Molly‘s attention. He kept calling Molly saying “Hey little girl. Look at me little girl.” And I honestly think he was just trying to be friendly, not realizing that the reason Molly wasn’t looking at him is because she was super uncomfortable and getting very shy. But he kept pressing and I was trying to be polite by not saying anything. Needless to say, and as I’m sure many of you have already guessed, Molly absolutely lost it. She started crying so hard and as I picked her up to console her, I realized that her clothes were wet. She had peed through her diaper! So here I am in the doctor’s office, exhausted from a long morning, super stressed out because I feel like I had 1 million work things racing through my head that day, and my little girl was screaming in the doctor’s office. Then I get called in to see the doctor.
Here’s where the embarrassing part comes in. Remember how I was too tired to bring the diaper bag with me from the car? Well here I was getting called into my doctor’s office realizing that my diaper bag was five floors below in the basement parking garage and my daughter was soaking wet through her clothes because she had a wet diaper. Since I didn’t have the time or energy to run downstairs to get the diaper bag, I went into the ladies room and grabbed a maxi pad to put on Molly. I’m not even kidding you! A maxi pad! Well really, I got two maxi pads and put them in her onesie as sort of a makeshift diaper. I was mortified.
At that point I was sitting on the floor in the exam room, because Molly didn’t want me to sit on the exam table, basically in tears as my daughter stood in front of me looking at me confused in wet clothes, wearing a maxi pad. I felt like I had completely failed as a mother.
I’m sharing the story because I know so many other moms have been there! I can’t be the only one that’s ever done this, right? Or maybe I am. Who knows! Looking back I can kind of laugh at the situation, but in the moment I was absolutely heartbroken. I just felt like I couldn’t keep it together in that moment. And you know what, that’s OK! I hope me sharing the story encourages all of you to share the moments in your life that make you feel vulnerable as a parent.
I would absolutely love it if you guys would join me in sharing those stories in the comments below. Mostly so I don’t feel so alone and like such a failure of a mom because of the story I just shared. And you guys should really check out Plum Organics and their keeping it together campaign here. They have stories from all different kinds of people, like other parents and experts on how to handle the first year parenting. And even though this is my second year parenting with Molly, I’m about to go through the first year all over again so I’m definitely going to be visiting the site often so I don’t feel discouraged.
Alright guys, now it’s your turn! I’d love if you could share the moments in your life where maybe you didn’t feel like you were keeping it together and how you either overcame those moments or are able to look back on them and giggle. I shared two stories. One where I feel like I made some really great choices as a mom that led to my daughter being a really great eater! And another story where I wasn’t winning any mom of the year awards. To put it lightly. Because like I said above, parenting is hard. Really hard. And I don’t think you’re always supposed to know how to keep it all together – all of the time. We’re all just doing the best we can, and that’s ok! Love you guys! Excited to read all of your stories and respond to them!