Hey guys. Thanks for coming over to my blog today to read this post. I’m feeling pretty vulnerable right now since I’m sharing these photos and opening up about my postpartum body. But I thought it was important to do. I’ve gotten so many comments from people on my recent Instagram photos saying that they can’t believe how much I bounced back to my pre-pregnancy body. Or someone will say something like “I wish I looked that good after having a baby!” And while I appreciate the positive comments, you guys are always so good to me, I keep trying to explain that I’m just good at picking out clothes that flatter my body and hide my tummy. And I’ve tried to assure many of you that I haven’t completely bounced back and that my body has changed – a lot! But as much as I say that, I feel like it’s hard to believe unless I show you guys. I want you all to see me as I really am, and to know that I’m not perfect and I struggle with my postpartum body just like many other women out there do.
My body has changed in many ways, but I think my biggest insecurities lie around my stomach and my chest. I definitely have a pouch of belly fat that wasn’t there before I got pregnant with Riley and the skin around my stomach is extremely loose. I can grab a fistful of it with my hand and stretch it out. It’s the weirdest thing! Sometimes I wonder if it will ever go back to normal. Maybe it will, maybe it won’t. Either way, I’m learning to be kinder to myself every day.
And I think I’m insecure about my chest right now because it’s just gotten so much bigger. A lot of the clothes that I used to wear don’t look right on me anymore or tops that I used to wear that were conservative all of a sudden look risqué when I wear them because my cleavage is showing (which isn’t something I like to show). So I’ve definitely had to make some adjustments to my wardrobe as well.
As nervous as I am to put myself out there like this, it’s something I’ve been wanting to do for a long time. I’ve been thinking about writing this post for a few weeks now, and then recently I was contacted by Lilly & Lime about their swimwear line. I was immediately intrigued by the company when they told me they were founded by “two busty moms”. They are all about celebrating a woman’s body and all her curves! They went on to tell me that as our bodies change its super important to get measured and to “size check.” That immediately resonated with me because my size has certainly changed in many ways over the last year. It almost felt serendipitous that they reached out to me given how I was feeling in the moment.
In fact, after I had Riley I tried on one of my pre-pregnancy swimsuits only to find that it didn’t fit anywhere on my body. Not only did the bottoms not fit because my hips and booty definitely grew during my pregnancy, but the biggest change was in my chest. As many of you know, I breastfeed Riley and needless to say, my chest is much bigger than it was before children. The little triangle bikini tops that I used to wear looked absolutely ridiculous on me now. I needed something with more coverage and support for my new busty curves.
The first thing I did was get online and order a bunch of swimsuits from the sites that I normally do. When they arrived I found that they still didn’t look right on me. And they definitely weren’t supportive. So honestly, it was such good timing to have connected with a brand like Lilly & Lime. Their sizes range from 28D to 40HH (I’m a 34DD right now FYI) and they have the cutest prints and bright colors!
So why did I write this post? It’s really two-fold.
One, to share my insecurities with all of you and let you know that I’m human too! And look, everybody is different. I bounced back pretty quickly after I gave birth to Molly. But things are different this time and I’m OK with that. I’m learning to love my body and embrace how it’s changed. I hope I get back to my pre-pregnancy shape one day, but that may never happen. And if it doesn’t, that’s OK.
And the second point of this blog post is to share this company, Lilly & Lime, that I believe can help women everywhere feel more comfortable in their own skin! They’ve definitely done that for me!
And now I’m opening my blog up to all of you to share your stories. Maybe you bounced back right away after having your children, maybe you didn’t. Maybe like me, you bounced back quickly after one baby and not after the second. We all have different stories and different insecurities and I want this to be a safe place where we can share those stories. So free feel to share yours without having any fear of judgment. Luv you guys!